Goodbye Sweetheart

Time to say goodbye but I couldn’t be there, how much I hated myself for that. I wasn’t there to see you last and couldn’t be there to bid you bye……..

I watched as you shivered from a new pain and wondered how I might have handled the same. I wanted to scream, to shout and to yell but you said you were fine although your skin were so pale. I knew you were hurting although you wouldn’t cry. I could see that you were suffering, see the pain in your eyes. I wanted to comfort you, to hold you and to be with you as you looked helpless and frail. I knew in my heart your time was near end and wished I could take you, your body to mend. I knew that soon God would be your closest friend.

Now I stood in front of you but not on the sick bed but a casket. I stood there watching as each breath came slow and fought to find courage, my emotion were low. I promised you when the time came that I will not cry. You never saw my eyes wet, always they were dry. I held your hand as I silently said goodbye and knew in my heart that soon you would be fine. I stoked your forehead and said how I loved you. You seem to have nodded and smiled and I knew that you knew.

I no longer care, my tears I cannot hide and as I stood there watching death by your side, I knew then that God is your closest friend now.