The worst day of my life is the January 28 1999.
Back then, we were just an ordinary and happy couple who were just looking forward to our big day in September which never comes. I remember that we had an argument few days before that fateful day. It was a bad one, I meant really bad that I wanted to stop seeing you. I was avoiding you for days, not picking up your calls, not seeing you at the door. Your only means to reaching me is through your friends then.
After a good 2 days cooling off period, I calm down and decide to forgive you. Then young I had too much ego to call you first, so I waited for your call. I waiting since sun up to sun down but there was no news of you. I heard from Patrick that you guys were washing the bike together that afternoon and you rush off to meet someone to drink. No one knew where you went and who you went with. The whole group of them had assumed that you are coming to see me but NO. That is not what happened.
Knowing your “whereabouts”, I continue to wait for your call at home. I knew you are going to call me at some point maybe when you reach home to meet your probation time. I waited and waited. No calls, I got uneasy, I don’t feel well, and I feel the “coldness” in the air. Then finally at 12.20am, I got a call from Eugene. The first word out of his mouth was, “hey, Kelvin is dead” “Stop fooling around. This is not funny” I said and I stumped the phone down hard. I didn’t think much as he is never serious and an irritating freak. There I goes waiting and waiting again. Then finally at 4.43am, I got a call from Jia Wei. He was talking casually, we were chit chatting. Nothing out of the ordinary happened and I told myself, that you are safe. After a good 20 mins chats, Jia Wei said “Hey, I got a bad news for you”. Immediately, I told “Please don’t say. I knew it already.” Tears rolled down my cheek uncontrollably; my world collapsed and stopped at the same time. I stopped and wish that I could turn back times.
The next morning, I rush to the convenience store and grab a straits time. There it is your picture and the description of the fatal accident. I learned about how brutal it was only on the papers, no one told me anything. Following the straits time, I brought all the newspaper that day, new paper, Chinese papers, everything that I can laid my hands on. The uttermost sick thing is that those newspapers were saying that you met the accident right after sending your girlfriend home. Your mom last words from you are that you are going out to meet me. Oh….I wasn’t even there. I wasn’t even with you. I was RIGHT AT HOME.
Angry friends and family member keep asking me to tell them what happened that night. Did I argue with you again? Where did we go? Telling me to speak up and I cannot be selfish enough to keep those memories to myself. What am I suppose to say! I WASN’T EVEN THERE. Jia Wei, Eugene, Patrick can prove everything but they did not stand up me. I had to be blamed 9 years for being the lady who went out with you and left you there to die….
