Confused

I am standing here alone but all I want is to be over there; over there where you will be! But then you went and left the world, leaving my heart empty. I’m only left with used to be.

Why did I let myself believe that miracles could happen? Now I know that you're not a fairytale and dreams were meant for sleeping. I wish upon a star that just wouldn’t come true. I can't believe that I could be so blind. It's like you were floating while I was falling with no one there to catch.

I am confused!